I haven't posted a new blog in quite some time and I find it ironic that as we approach July 25th (what would have been my mother's 50th birthday) I am drawn back to my blog. I have to admit, re-reading all my previous posts reminded me of how much God has blessed me and how much emotional progress I have made.
While dealing with my mother's death has taken a toll on me mentally, physically and emotionally, I find that my efforts of putting God first in my life has taken me down a path that I never would have imagined. So here is where I meet my fork in the road....here is where God took me down the path least expected.....
While canceling my mom's cell phone plan, I met my husband. I completely threw myself at him while he was helping me at the cell phone store. I couldn't believe myself...I mean I was in the middle of grief and here I was flirting and asking this stranger to meet me for dinner. The short of the long of it is that we met, we hit it off and we dated. After a year of dating, we both knew this was something special. We got engaged on Feb 7, 2008 and married on March 14, 2009.
I like to think that God sent a guardian angel to me at the request of my mom and guided me towards happiness. Someone wise once told me that "it was as if your mom had to die so that you could live." I pondered that for a while, but it is true. I was never happy and had many dark secrets that were inflicted from my imperfect family situation that required some dealing with. I don't think I would have ever dealt with the magnitude of these situations had my mom's passing not prompted me to turn to therapy. Once in therapy, my husband, fiance at the time, was there for me 100% and it grew us closer. He now understands me at a level that I never knew was possible of anyone. He supports me for me, not for the fluff that he met. Not for the nice figure that he first saw, not for the smooth talk that we first conversed with. He fell in love with me for 100% of who I really am.
I am sooooo blessed!
The wedding was tough without mom or dad, but we made it through and it was beautiful. Now I am enjoying the struggles and the excitement of married life.
The abundant blessing blog will be continued.......
